March 25, 2013

• Still working on it

  When I was in my 20's I was in a few co-dependent relationships,
  after assessing the mess I made of it, I sought a good counselor.
  I worked on self esteem issues and learned that

  True Self worth can only come from the inside.
  It is not  in who loves you, what others think or say about you,
  how you compare,  your accomplishments or appearance.
  Your worth is in that YOU ARE!

  I worked through some other issues and was a lot better
  but I still had weight issues.
  I started gaining weight when I was born and never stopped
  ( I started emotional eating, the summer my big sister ran away
  between 4th and 5th grades, Read about that HERE)
    There were a few times I had lost a few lbs here and there
  but nothing worked for long.
  In 2008 I was 325 lbs and I had to do something.
  I went to a Lose it for Life Workshop which deals with emotional eating issues.
  I had NO CLUE that going to that workshop would break a dam
  that I had built over the years with food to keep from dealing
  with the turmoil I could not process at the time.
  Would I have gone to that workshop had I know that
  three years of tears and pain would follow
  as I dug through the debris to get I to the core of myself ?
  I do not think so, I am glad that I had no idea what would follow.

  

  Now I feel hopeful, I've lost 85 lbs since then,
  (15 lbs to go til I have lost 100 lbs)
  and I am continuing on the healing journey.

  "Healing may not be so much about getting better,
  as about letting go of everything that isn't you
  - all of the expectations, all of the beliefs
  - and becoming who you are."
  - Rachel Naomi Remen

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