I know what the hard work of counseling and change is like.
It is not an easy road.
It is so difficult that the pain of living with it
has to become greater than the pain of dealing with it
before most people will get help.
But still,
it was more painful for me to open some of the hurts and deal with them
than it was for me to endure them when they happened.
I remember how it choked me and I could not breathe,
but when I sorted it out and stripped away all but the truth
I could deal with it.
It's amazing what pain and lies we carry around a hurt in order to live with it,
opening it up and cleaning it out is a lot of work
but the joy and freedom beneath the lifted burden is beyond measure.
The road is a difficult one but it is well worth the journey.
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I hope so.
What you said is beautiful and that picture is beautiful!
Love you!
amen
Thank you for posting this. I showed it to someone who is feeling frustrated with the process of counseling and I hope it helps a little. Continued health and happiness to you.
Wow, Beth -- what a beautiful road you have opened up
!
Thank you for posting this, I needed to read this today.
Yay, Beth! You benefit and we all benefit.
I admire your inner strength.
so , tell me, what happens when you strip away all the garbage, and all that's left is truth, The truth is not pretty and happy. Why, even when you can understand why things happen the way they do, you cannot change what happened, and certainly not fix it. I'm sorry, but for me, understanding why, is just one more step towards the saddness that is reality.
@Blue_Moon1 - I can process the truth, even if it was not pleasant or fair , what hurt were the lies I told myself to cope with it like no one loves me or I am disgusting or it was my fault.
Yes this is a hard road to walk, and thank goodness I have had a good therapist to walk it with. Yes the walk is a difficult but well worth the journey.
The person I might have been if they had not done what they did to me is not who i am, but who I am is so much more because I have walked that road and not only survived but can love with a big, open, caring heart.
This is so beautifully written Beth and so true and hugs your way sweet lady.
It never is but you will get through it. God bless you. Take care.
I needed to read this.....thanks for sharing it!
True.
Life is a journey hun! I understand what you mean about the pains that happen along the way and especially about trying to deal with them.
Bless you dear!
Love the message (and the photo!)
and this is why i like you so much.
great post.
I agree.
Such a peaceful photo.
*hugs* You are such a wonderful person and you deserve to be free of the lies. The work was worth it! It always is... Love the fall colors in the photo!
lovely both; your journey toward happiness through truth and acceptance, and the photograph you shared here.
what lovely photos! so glad i came by for a look
I'm facing some things and it's really hard. I feel like I'm drowning! How did you get through it?
@SealedbyGrace - counseling and a good friend to keep in touch with everyday and netflix!